Just when you think it's over...

So many things in the world, so many feelings, bonds, obligations. It's never easy to sever the ties to the materials of this world. Clinging to reality, or what seems to be reality. Everything we see, we develop a certain connection to it. We adapt slowly, but we find it hard to break off the connection once we get comfortable with it.

You think you have finally sever the connection, the truth deliberately ignored by the conscious mind, a few strands of the connection remains in the sub-conscious, waiting for the right events to trigger emotions, and the void that was once there opens up, accepting all sorts of thoughts, throwing the mind into utter chaos, insanity follows, logic and reasoning falters, and the fragile piece of humanity is consumed by madness.

Ties to the past lingers to the present, more ties forming the longer we linger in the world, unwilling to disappear, unable to break apart, keeping us conscious to the world, and unconscious to the self. Awareness is both a gift and a curse. Ignorance and indulgence are the extreme ends to it, moderation is key...

Moderation is the key, the key to salvation. Will there ever be a true salvation? Life and death is a never-ending cycle, Death is a part of Life, Life is a part of Death. In search of Death, we are shadowed by Life. In search of Life, we are shadowed by Death. The cycle that never ends. The world doesn't need any change. We are defined by the world around us, and the world is defined by the very same people. Change is what we do to the world, change is what the world has done to us.

Have a good day. Savor it while it lasts, tomorrow will never be the same, yet, history repeats......

Lamers

When was the last time you did something stupid? I am not speaking about mistakes and all that, just something stupid, like purposely rolling yourself down the hill, or taste a 9 volt battery with your tongue. Everyone had their urge for doing something incomprehensible from time to time, it just takes a lot more action and a lot less brainpower to do it. I remember those times, most when I was a kid, as well as when I was a teenager. The feeling gotten from wanting to do it, while I was doing it and after I was done with it are still kept at heart. I used to remember how freedom tastes like, until I was introduced to the world of papers and pieces of metallic shiny objects. I remember being a lamer, and enjoying the feeling of being one. Guess I will now go back to reality, and keep the memories for laugh.

Back

After 9 days of silence, I am back to this blog. Got myself a new job, and have been working for a full week now. Having to drive to work now, the monthly expenses have risen. Being able to sleep a little while longer, I have to pay more for transportation instead. Well, meeting new colleagues is exciting, but I miss my old ones. Having to feel the sensation of driving, I trade off the time I can take to take naps while waiting in the train. Striking a balance, as always, life seems to be. Now my way of talking seems to suffer from Yoda syndrome, it seems......

Blank stare

(O_O)

Yep, that's the look I'm going to give you for the weekend. Guess it's just a minor case of writer's block, or maybe it's just that I am too lazy to think something up. Have a good weekend.

(O_O)

Learn to forget?

How do you actually do that? You need to know how to forget, and to know, you need to remember. So in order to remember, you can't really forget it. So how do you learn to forget? Once you learn how to forget, you have to forget how to forget. If not, then you have learn nothing, either way. If you remember how to forget, you didn't actually learn to forget. If you forget how to forget, then you have learned, up to the point you forget how to. Oh boy, this is one paradox that happens due to the lack of definition. Well, all I can say is, no one can really choose to forget.

Blunt

If there is one word to describe me, this one would fit me best. Everything I see, it will only be surface-deep. Everything I do, is obviously based on what I see, is surface-deep only. I can make people go mad at me by my actions, and I would not know why, or wouldn't even know that someone is mad at me. My thinking, which is also based on what I see, is surface-deep as well. So I am a very simple person, who do and think simple things with a simple purpose, and disregarding the people around me. I seldom make the effort to dig deeper into what went wrong, and have always remained as the moron that I am. Hence, "Blunt" would be the perfect word for me.

Wet days

The sky's been gloomy since yesterday noon. Raining for more than an hour, then on and off again, up until now. Hearing the raindrops hitting surface, not much wind, and no thunder or lightning. Just plain rain. The sound it makes, kept my mind blank, so it's been blank up till now, which is why the only thing I can write about is rain. The sky is still gloomy, and I guess there will be more rain to come. Smelling little bit of moisture in the air, and catching a little bit of chirping, cawing, and squawking here and there. The sound keeps me conscious of everything, and of nothing at the same time. I guess now it's time to go back to the bed, and enjoy the cool weather while it lasts.