The Old Days

What happened to human interaction? It was so much more different when I was studying. Working life sure has a completely different base than a studying life. Everyone was close to each other, and even if not close, everyone would know each other's name. The working life however, people come and go just as easy. You know someone for three months, then he/she would leave for a better job elsewhere. I am not saying that it's bad, it's just I miss the schooling days, where people actually "hang out" with each other, not merely going out just for lunch. Talking to each other was so much more simple during the schooling period. In the working life, I seem to scare the females away, which doesn't happen when I was studying......much. I still need to better my way of approaching them and bringing myself around then...... *grumbles*

Those were the good ol' days......

Learn something new everyday

It amazes me how many more interesting things one can learn just by talking to someone else. It doesn't have to be useful, but as long as it's new, it's good exercise for the brain. It's either I have shut myself in my own world for too long, or there's just too many things that can be learned out there. Some knowledge are gained even when we don't realize it. Ok, I think everyone would know it as "gossip" but then, the gossips are so much more entertaining than typical news you get from the newspapers. Not the tabloid kind of stuffs, just hearsay from people that heard it from someone else. You may never know what you might have not heard.

"A wise man is he who does not grieve for the things which he has not, but rejoices for those which he has."

— Epictetus (c. 50-120)

Hooked

It seems that I form attachments with other people easily, but not the other way around, especially with females. But then, I can sever the attachment easily, and don't feel bad about it as well. I have yet to fall in too deep into the chasm of relationship, but I am not sure anyone would want a person get attached too easily. No challenge, they say......

Available and searching, but very passive, deadly combination, and I have yet to break the invisible barrier that eludes myself from the rest of the ladies. So it's an infinite loop. I am bad at expressing, and ladies find it hard to accept me as who I am.

*shakes head* - there goes my love life

The Now and The Future

The future is always uncertain, and the now bares itself with choices to be made, which in time, will bring consequences in the future. Taking idle time to reflect this upon myself, I begin to wonder, why do I think so much about the future, and consequently, neglected the now. Hesitation is a sign of weakness, but no human being is without flaw. We fear what we couldn't handle, and fear even more when thrown into the unknown. There are so many things that could have been done during the period of our hesitation. I keep telling myself that, but my cowardice always gets the better of me. I want to do things that I would really like myself to do, but all the negative outcomes start pouring into my mind: Rejection, disappointment, grief, and the like. Even when I have decided to make that move, it would be too little, too late, considering the time I took to hesitate, which has eroded the opportunity that was once solid. If only things are simple, but that would make life a bore, wouldn't it?

On another perspective though, it's really quite simple. You make the choice, you live with the consequences. Everything comes at a price, so why hesitate when it wouldn't change anything. Humans seldom regret at the choices they made, most regret at the choices that they didn't make. Someday, I am going to learn how to hypnotize myself into doing things. There is only one good comment that will suit this situation: "Boy, get some man-balls!". Oh, and don't tell me that by not making a choice, I am already making one: choosing not to make a choice. It's more like a counter-choice. Well, hopefully the saying "better late than never" rings true when I need it.

*sighs*

Observe

There are a multitude of times where I lack the ability to notice my surroundings. Too ignorant to bother, at least that's what I told myself. People throwing hints and I just made a fool out of myself disregarding it, unintentionally. Not being able to see the hidden meaning in anything, oblivious to everything but those that I can see, and my ability to see isn't very much well either. Sometimes, I wish I could be more careful when dealing with life, and with people. The opportunities that were once there doesn't really bare itself right in the face, and will be missed, even when I didn't know that there was the opportunity. But then, there are times where ignorance is bliss, and most of those were a few of the best moments that I have in life. Who could ask for more, there is always the pros and the cons for everything, so I will go back to my life, be the passive person that I am, and savor while it lasts.

Fatigue

A typical adult would require 8 hours of sleep, to rejuvenate himself. Apparently, I sleep for only 6 hours on weekdays, and mainly not because of work that I missed the two hours of sleep. "There is always a price to pay", like they always say. Hey it rhymes!

I guess you can't have everything, and I am human anyway.

*yawns*

Milk as Laxative (II)

As written in the first milk as laxative article, I was trying to find out if milk really makes me poo in the morning if I drink it yesterday night. Turns out that it's for real. I took two packets of low-fat milk and had one hell of a morning the next day. And it smells like milk too, if you know what I mean. Guess there won't be anymore milk for the night, and now I finally understand why people take milk during their breakfast......